Today we are so exited to feature Jasmine! We have delivered flowers to her sweet son’s headstone a couple of times, and she is such an amazing person. Get to know her and read her story below!♥️
I am a former elementary school teacher turned stay-at-home mom. We have one son, Chase, who would be 3 and a daughter, Oaklyn, who just turned one.
When Chase was born he had a hard time breathing and spent a few days in the NICU. His breathing got better on his own and we were sent home with a healthy baby. When he was about 6 weeks old, he stopped breathing several times while in his car seat. We called 911, had a short hospital visit, a pediatrician visit and ultimately ended up at Primary Children’s Hospital. After days and days of tests he was diagnosed with a double aortic arch vascular ring. Basically, his aorta split in 2 and wrapped around his trachea and esophagus making it extremely difficult for him to breathe. Surgery was performed a few days later and was a success. We spent a little longer at the hospital and were eventually sent home with Chase to recover. Everything was going great until suddenly it wasn’t. About a week after we got home we woke up to feed Chase in the middle of the night and something wasn’t right. While we were on the phone with 911, Chase stopped breathing again. I began performing CPR until a police officer arrived and took over. It was chaos in our home after that and it all seems like a blur, yet I can remember every detail. We were transported to the nearest hospital where they tried unsuccessfully to revive him. We still don’t know exactly what happened and every doctor that saw him during our stay at Primary Children’s Hospital was baffled.
We believe that he wanted a family and needed a body in order to progress. Despite the heartache, we are still so grateful he chose us to be his parents. He was 2 months and 6 days old when he returned to our Heavenly Father.
Don’t go through it alone. Reach out to family and friends. Find others to connect with who have experienced similar loss. Talk to people about the person you lost and how you are feeling.
A lot of times after we lost Chase it would be hard for me to talk about him without crying. It took me a while to realize that it’s okay to cry! Of course, I’m sad and I miss my baby—no wonder I would often end up in tears. I used to feel like if I cried I would make others feel uncomfortable but now I realize how important it is to feel all of the emotions fully while you are grieving. Keeping them bottled up just makes things worse. Allow yourself to feel and grieve in whatever whatever way you see fit. Grief isn’t one size fits all and you shouldn’t feel ashamed of how it works for you. Just make sure you allow it to happen.